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I haven't used this in the longest time... [09 Feb 2009|08:35pm]
[ mood | loved ]

... but there are some stuff to remember.
Like this quote from an email to a friend:

"I heard in the radio the other day that as we grow, we'll find that not all loves are worth it. There are loves that you just have to let go for your own good. Kasi when we're young we think that as long as we love each other then we should give all our efforts to it. That we should fight for it, that that's it, that it will define our whole existence. But I'm sure, every mature human being would discover that sometimes love isn't enough. It's not that you love the person any less, it's just that you refuse to subject yourself to that kind of treatment/situation. I totally agree. When i was younger i thought nga that if someone i liked loved me back then i would fight for him, i'd love him until nothing was left for myself, but now? Let me be a little harsh, we all have to be practical. And, when i was younger kasi, all the guys i liked were successful in my eyes. Of course they were, i didn't know how'd they end up as grown ups."

To that person who made my weekend and sang a part of this song in my ear:
You
You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me.

It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me.

... if you meant it, i'd reconsider.

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i don't know anymore [19 Nov 2006|02:40pm]
[ mood | mixed emotions ]

Sometimes, i really don't know what i want or if i really want the things i want. Like for example, i'd want something so bad, but when i think about having it, it scares me. It's weird. I'm weird. Maybe it's the uncertainty that you're going to experience after getting what you want. Because really, after getting what you want, after reaching that goal, what is there for you? Nothing else... you can't just continue on wanting something because you'll eventually get it if you try hard enough. Maybe that's why people always want what they can't have, to have an eternal purpose. Since having a goal or wanting to achieve something give people their purpose in life, wanting something they can't have would be a goal they'll have forever and because they'll never achieve it, they always feel the need to live.

I really think too much. I really should just let things happen...

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[07 Sep 2006|11:53pm]
[ mood | just the same ]

Yeah, just one question. When will you grow up?

Jeeezz... coz y'know i can't stay forever.

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Just got back from Batangas [03 Sep 2006|10:39pm]
So... that Batangas trip was fun. I saw Ostriches taller than me... they're scary... We swam, bummed, laugh, got drunk (well, that's me and Gekai). That trip, although nothing that significant happened, is memorable. That's probably the last trip that we're all going to be together because half of the group is graduating. Congrats to Carlo, James, Dino, Thea, and Gekai! And good luck looking for work! Wahahahahaha! As for us lia-comm peeps, we still have a year and one more trimester to go!

I found out that my GPA is in its all-time low. And that i need 3.2 GPA in the remaining trimesters to actually graduate "with honors". Damn, that's going to be a lot of effort.

Oh, it's the trim break, did i mention that? Yeah. and i'm bored.
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[19 Aug 2006|04:11pm]
Well, the trimester is almost done. Another one down. Hmmm... 4 more to go to graduate.

We're apporved for defense for our thesis. Thank my god! Exagge! That was a load off my shoulders after one whole year of thinking about it. Tomorrow, we're going to edit it for one last time and defend it on Friday, after that, i am so free!

Exams are coming up, i have one test per day, except on Friday. Damn... it's okay, i can do this! Well, i hope i can!
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[02 Aug 2006|09:41pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

For those of you who don't know how political parties and elections are in la salle let me give you a brief description of it:

It's less extreme than the politics in UP but way more intense than Ateneo's.

Rumors being created and disseminated. Case filing here and there (for electioneering or anything that might disqualify or handicap the opposing parties). Talking to people you barely know and asking them if they've voted, and if not urging them to vote. Running everywhere. Stratigizing how to get voters before the other party so they can't steal them. People getting pissed, crying, laughing, gossiping, whispering, shouting, flirting everything! I can go on.. but that's the gist of it.

I honestly find it so interesting and amusing. it's nice to observe people while they're working on this... i don't know why. It's such an experience! Many people might not care about it, but i suggest to everyone, who can participate, to be a part (and not just by voting) of at least one general or freshmen elections just to see how it goes! It's engaging! Swear!

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[28 Jul 2006|12:32am]
[ mood | discontent ]

Today was probably one of the worse days in this trimester...i know, the trim's not even over yet, but i'm sure, today is one of those really bad days. Aside from waiting for nothing and being unproductive for almost 5 hours straight, i experienced feelings that you dont't want each other to mix with all at the same time. Anger, confusion, frustration, loneliness, hopelessness, sympathy, guilt, desparation... all that shit! See... if i was someone who had an emotional capacity of a bird or whatever puny animal that does nothing but eat, i would've not been sanely typing this. Probably refusing to enter a insane asylum by now.

But now it's 12:30 am, and that's already yesterday. It's the past... and it must not be carried over to today. I'm sleeping soon... hopefully, tomorrow is better.

I just want someone to treat me right...

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releasing stress [26 Jul 2006|11:29pm]
[ mood | tired and sleepy ]

Imagine if classes weren't cancelled yesterday and last monday... i'd be a... person half asleep walking with my eyes barely open because of tiredness

because right now, i can barely open my eyes properly and technically, the school week just started today. Pano ba yan? Nasan na ang resistensya mo? Poverty tayo!!

And i'm so busy that when i'm not busy all i have time for is sleep... oh and bumming, using the computer. I don't even have time to pluck the ugly stray hairs on my eyebrows (which deprive me of realizing my potential beauty, if i do have some potential)! Now i have big eye bags and bushy eyebrows... and i used to think my best features were my eyes... aaww...mehn!

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[24 Jul 2006|10:23pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

I really should be doing my jingle for my copywriting class but...
i'm having a really hard time! Any other joke and any other topic, this could have been easier, at any other time (like when i feel stupid) but this time... no... i already got the first several lines. And it's good that i got the product name in the first three lines. But! This is all i have:

Good and Cheap
Good and Cheap
Tissue paper does the trick!
If you have a dirty table, dusts and spills and all the rest.
Spots and

I'm so pityful! I am! I can't believe i can't come up with anything for Good and Cheap Tissue Paper, and it's due tomorrow!

Semi-hoping there won't be classes tomorrow, but still hoping that there are... we gotta get a move on our thesis... jeeez... but at least we got progress today :D

At ito, para sa iyo, yung tanong mo sa aking kanina? Oo. :D

edited: 11:10 pm
So... classes got suspended again... now i need to fix that thesis shit. And i don't have to do the power point presentation and jingle just yet! Yes!!!!!

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thesis the stress.. [23 Jul 2006|10:47pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Doesn't the weather understand that we need to do the thesis we've been worrying about?!?!? That tomorrow is an important day for our thesis!! That we really need that! Shux!

Damn weather... we're in the brink of failing our thesis!!

Anyway, on a brighter note, Ang Mga Kwento ni Lola Basyang turned out to be a funny play! Laugh trip all the way and classic lines! I specially liked the last play the best because it was the most funny!

Damn, i'm really worried about our thesis and i can't get it off my mind...

And the welcoming was so much fun... i think.. i think it's because i already knew what to expect that's why i wasn't so scared or whatever. But i loved it. Family bonding! :p

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[21 Jul 2006|10:36pm]
[ mood | sleepy and stressed ]

So i think this will be the 5th, or the 4th weekend i'll not be going out. This weekend though, i'll be out of the house, but all of it is for school. Here's the schedule:
10:00 am - Starbuck's The Clubhouse for thesis
3:00 pm - PETA for Ang Mga Kwento ni Lola Basyang play for FILIPI3
5:00 pm - Welcoming for Santugon

Let's see if i can still squeeze some sort of gimik after the welcoming, maybe if i'm not that tired... asa pa. Shucks... i honestly want to stay home. I just want to sleep and not use my legs which i've been using too much since monday. Running here, walking there, jumping around.

Campaign week next week and thesis stress too. Damn that thesis... why didn't they just make it an OJT? i think that's better because you get to apply what you've learned and get a little experience around the industry. Thesis is so useless.

Well Good luck to me next week... it's push-yourself-to-the-limit next week... wonder if i'll last... wonder what's my limit?

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[20 Jul 2006|10:14pm]
[ mood | a little annoyed and worried ]

Pulling me back? No... More like DRAGGING me back. God damn.
I said it's done. DONE!! Then YOU drag me back. Stupid stupid.

I was thinking... I never get the guy. What do i mean?:
1. I never get the guy, as in i don't get the guy that i like.
2. I never get the guy, as in if he were picking from 2 girls and one was me, he always ends up picking the other.
So... if you and i were fighting over the same guy and you think i have the advantage, i'm telling you now, fret no more. You'll get him. That is, if he were only choosing from you and me.

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[10 Jul 2006|10:07pm]
[ mood | light ]

It must've been such a blast to be a world cup fan... especially if you're an Itally fan... so many establishments make it so enjoyable to watch the games nowadays... too bad i'm not a a fan. I don't even know why i raised my hand when one of the teachers asked who was a fan. I don't know, i raised my hand because no one else did. Hahahaha!

Funny how defense mechanisms work, right? Hahaha Love it!

And! Thank my god! I'm happy... hmm... cheerful? ugh, i don't like that adjective. Err... i feel lighter than how i felt... say... 2 hours ago... because something that i wanted to happen and i was just imagining to happen 2 hours ago happened an hour ago... hahahaha...

What is it with the 106 batch?!? Ged demn...

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[02 Jul 2006|12:31am]
[ mood | unhappy ]

I'm tired of trying to figure out what i should be with you guys.
Instead of being good, adjusting to everyone's preference, i come out like i'm some sort of a plastic person, and i hate that, when all i'm trying to do is stay on your good side.

I'm also tired of having no one. When it's raining, when i'm out with friends, when i'm bored, when i'm sick or when i'm feeling needy. And i'm not a needy person. I'm actually quite independent. I know how to carry 4 bags all at the same time, i can drive myself and follow directions without asking anyone, i can accomplish my school work on my own, i can walk alone, i can sleep without a 'goodnight' from anyone, I can even open the god-damn door for myself! I just wish once in a while to have someone to talk to like that, to get a text message from a person that i would love to see in my phone every minute, to be asked if i'm okay. I would love to have someone worry about my happiness before he worries about his. For once, i want someone to think of my happiness and not me thinking about everyone else's [happiness].

And you! where have you been?!?

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[26 Jun 2006|10:14pm]
[ mood | numb ]

I just lost...
... again
... and it's not as hard, it's harder.

I thought it would be easier because i've already gone throught that. But contrary to what i thought, it's harder. I think it is because i had an expectation that it wouldn't happen to me again. That a thing like that can't just happen twice with the same person. That's why i was so cocky. I wasn't willing to admit that it could happen again because, really, why will you put yourself through hell and back?

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[23 Jun 2006|07:52pm]
[ mood | in the process of missing ]

To the person that i miss:
I thought about you more than five times today, when, on a normal day, i have people who are always around me to occupy my thoughts. I know a helluva lot of people. I keep on waiting for your name to pop up on my Yahoo! Messenger. Conclude the subliminal message using the sentences before this, if you can't, let me spell it out for you. I still miss you. And i've only missed one person like this before you.

Onto more stressful things. FUCK GREEN AND WHITE! YOUR ORGANIZATION IS BULLSHIT. You've hassled all of us and for what? So you can get our P2400 to produce the yearbook where you made us do half the work?!? Irresponsible and inconsiderate piece of shit, you should've seen this coming, you know very well the June 24 is Manila Day, it's been marked in the calendar since the start of 2006. You guys are impossible. You know it's your fault, right? Because everyone's been asking you about the deadline and you still refuse to consider it. I can't believe i'm paying you to stress me out. And then after you stress me out, that's the time you decide to put up the sign "Green and White, extended until July 1"?!?! Fuck that shit. That yearbook better be good.

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because i really do [23 Jun 2006|12:17am]
[ mood | missing you ]

I never thought i would, but...

...i actually miss you.


Yes, you. I know, right?!? Who would've thought? You're my ideal/dream guy (flaws and all), afterall. You just faded/disappeared like that. I do, i miss you. I just can't say it to your face. So... i hope you resurface(?)/show yourself(?), i don't know! just make your presence felt!
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[21 Jun 2006|10:21pm]
[ mood | over stressed ]

i have bigger problems now...

There's shouldn't be time to worry about what i've been worrying about but somehow, i still find time to worry about every once in a while. But it's lessening because i have bigger problems. At least... or i don't know. I don't think that's a good thing but i'm so sick of thinking about that.

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[14 Jun 2006|11:30pm]
[ mood | hella tired ]

I really admire people who show so much dedication and passion with what they are doing or in what they believe in. And my friend Stacy has all of it for our org. i was super impressed with the way she was talking to her college core group a while ago, i even wanted to be in her college so that i can be a part of THAT core group when she was doing that talk. I really got inspired, well it's sorta applicable to me to anyway because i half-belong in her college too and she was talking about the org and we're both in that org.

I guess i'm not doing all this hard work for nothing, right? Yeah, no one ever does hard work for nothing at all, sometimes, the pay back just comes much later. And if we don't know what we're working for, well... i think you do and you just don't want to admit it to yourself. Anyway, how can i not help the people that helped me? Right? Not that i'm just returning the favor, i think i'm doing this because i want other people to experience the things i have with these people. And they're great!

As Keane says it, "Spread the love, Spread the Santugon love..."

I know it's cheesy, but there ya go!

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[13 Jun 2006|11:12pm]
[ mood | tired, in all ways possible ]

I was watching Gilmore Girls a while ago and i thought:

"If Luke and Lorelai finally got together after a whole LOT of seasons..."

Well, do you know what comes after that thought?

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